I haven’t blogged for a whole week. It’s been a rough week to say the least. I think I hit rock bottom and literally felt the whole world was against me. I never want to feel this way again but it was an extreme state of depression.
Thankfully I’ve been working to make things more positive in my life and fix mistakes made.
I’ve never felt the need to go home more than anything this week. Do you ever feel that the only place you can get better is to surround yourself with family back at home? That’s how I felt. I know that no matter what happens in my life, my family will always be there as a support system, even when no one else is. For that I am truly grateful.
But things are better now and I’m taking life a day at a time.
The race at Louisville did not go as planned. I ran a 21:16 when I wanted to break 21. I have my reasons for which I think I did not reach this goal, but others will disagree so we’ll just say, I did not hit my time because of my racing mindset this season.
But onto our next race, next weekend, I have already made changes mentally and physically to help fix this barrier and I will break it.
At practice in our 2 mile tempo I already ran faster than any race thus far this season. I ran a 6:28 mile then a 6:38 mile to finish in 13:06.
I feel my life is obsessed with running, because well, it is. I’ve already started to think about the races I plan to do once college is over, since it will fly by. I only have one year left! How crazy is that? I’ve had that in part of my mind when looking at schools/areas to do my internship for my 5th year of school. Because wherever I go they have to have a good running community so I have something to train for.
A few running dreams for the future:
Disney Princess Half Marathon
50 Marathons in 50 States
Rock N Roll Series
I know I will do a lot of half marathons right after college and then I think to celebrate the end of my education/schooling I will run my first marathon and that will be the start of my journey to complete the 50 marathons in 50 states and join the club.
Q: What dreams do you have for the future?
Q: Did you hear about the Iphone and Sprint? I’m seriously pumped!
Q: What do you do when you feel you’ve hit rock bottom?