This is an interesting topic for me. I’ve been one of those people that has always been in a relationship pretty much. I was in a relationship most of high school and another all throughout college and now I’m at a bigger university and single. To sum it all up, here are some pictures that do justice to my current situation.
I’m one of those people that loves to feel needed and enjoys the closeness of someone. So as I embark on this single adventure I am leaning on myself to show my worth to myself. I can’t tell you the amount of people who have stated, “I don’t know how you are single” or “a girl like you is still single?!” etc, etc. As I react much like the little girl above, I think about the real reason. It’s because I’ve grown up with two great guys in my life. My dad and my brother have been great examples of guys that treat me well. I will always compare guys to them because I know how they treat me and expect nothing less. So this means I have really high standards and am looking for that true down to earth guy that is family oriented, isn’t afraid to be goofy, is extremely funny and knows how funny I am, and absolutely loves children.
Why these expectations? Because family is so important to me and I couldn’t be with someone that doesn’t feel the same way. And when it comes to children, even if I never found someone to settle down with, I knew that my purpose was to be an incredible mom and that’s all I ever wanted to do in life to be happy. So I’m looking for someone to relate to when it comes to children. The unfortunate thing is that these traits aren’t really clear to see right away when you meet someone. Which is why I am completely comfortable with patience and waiting until this guy is clear to me and comes into my life. So I will open up all opportunities to meeting and getting to know people and if I don’t find the person that I’m meant to be with, then that just means there was a different plan for me.
Strength is something that is developing in my personality. I am working extremely hard on positive self talk and building my relationship with God because I’ve always been a strong believer in Him having a plan for me and I first have to come to terms with my love for myself in order for someone else to truly love me. I know that I miss the closeness of having someone there for you at any moment you need them, but I have to take a step back and realize that I would rather be alone and waiting for the perfect person than allowing someone become close to me and end up hurting me because they weren’t right and I was just wanting to get that closeness back.
Like I said, this is a completely new experience for me and while it may be depressing and lonely at times, it is quite an adventure and is teaching myself a lot about who I am as a person and who I continue to want to be. I told you that I was getting real on the blog and that I have really had life changing experiences in the past year and this is one of them.